Maria was a young lass, who met a boy named Deaner
Her judgement said to take a pass, but her heart said he’s a keeper
The Deaner boy had never seen a girl anyyy more pretty. Said to himself “be better boy! Quit livin’ life so shitty.”
Me life was bad, it made me mad, until the time I met her
Maria Miller when she smiles, my life becomes much better.
And in the end its still me my friend, the same old average Deaner
The one difference, it makes no sense, now in my life I need her
Wow, can’t believe it took me over 4yrs to do this, but I’ve “hearted” 1000 posts, not an achievement, but the e-mail made me feel like posting!
It’s been one of those days when all I want to do is feel my heart pound. If I was next to a body of water right now, I’d probably swim and never return from where I came… Unfortunately, given the land-locked nature of my home province, a hard-core run may be just what I need this evening.
I have never stumbled upon something that so accurately describes my “perfect” version of life so well! Had to share this one…
Simple as that, don’t tell me something and do another…
This post isn’t even directed at anyone in particular, but I’m sick of this sort of thing happening, I am one to never break a promise, without apologizing and doing my best to make it up to a person; so getting pushed to the wayside had to get tiring eventually. I’d say that at this point in my life it finally has.
All I can say is… I wish, I’m one to never voice what I’d love, but all I can say is I know he’s busy, but I work a lot more than he does and still find tons of time to do little things, no money might make it difficult, but come on grab the pen I gave you and write me a letter, you have two now, what’s your excuse for the lack of reply, I gave you the first one in what April? May maybe?! If only he knew…
"She’s bipolar right?…. make sure she takes her meds."
This seems to be the comment that is resonating in my mind right now. I believe battling with mental health issues, having trouble finding a stable relationship since the diagnosis, taking medical leave from work and school and then finally having an amazing year, hearing about how I have an aura of success, meeting a manager in the north, who basically promised me an interview just before grad to have a job waiting for me has all sort of given me more fear. The reasoning may be irrational, but to also find someone who “claims to love me” and that is awful that I even put it like that, but sometimes I really wonder, especially after a night like tonight, where his plans fall through and I was scrambling to have someone to join me at the bar, because I had been invited to come out by a coworker, I go with my boyfriend and then leave an hour later, much to my dismay, all I can think about is the worse parts of my life, and how I don’t want to return there. I feel that if I keep getting my hopes up only to be let down, even not by much, that everything else that’s going for me in life, will slowly fall through as well.
That post last night was made when I was nearly asleep and the run-on sentences are driving me insane tonight, but you know what, there is very little editing I would like to do to that post, simply because it exemplifies how much my mind was racing. I hate when I get in such a pessimistic mood, you know I get the same way with my mom too, sometimes the ones who do love us most have the worst ways of showing it. I know we are all human, and I am sure I am guilty of that sort of thing too, but I really wish I didn’t have to spell out what I need in terms of support. I wish there was a way that someone who cares could finally just figure out how to deal with me, rather than me always having to just get used to inappropriate actions. Yes, I just said it: “inappropriate actions” that is exactly what occurred last night, I didn’t exactly handle things perfectly, I reacted with anger, but you know, sometimes I guess I need to be brutally honest, so that these sort of things won’t keep happening. Also, when I say deal with me I mean understand me, or maybe think about how I might feel before they do something. I am an over-analyzer in every facet of my life, I over-analyze before almost every single thing I do, I know it often harms me more often than not, but sometimes I just wish that someone else would overanalyze and only take the “safe route” the route that would cause the least amount of harm, rather than just doing what they want. To be honest I rarely do what I really want, I normally do things to appease others whether it be an employer, my parents, friends, other family members, I always seem to put myself last, and sometimes, to be truly honest, and this truly just came to me…
Sometimes I should do something for myself, something that’ll make me happy, not something that’ll make me happy because it pleases others, sometimes I think I do deserve to be selfish. I think it’s only fair that I have input in decisions that involve me and others, rather than going with whatever the other person(s) want.
"I saw this elderly gentleman dining by himself, with an old picture of a lady in front of him. I though maybe I could brighten his day by talking to him.
As I had assumed, she was his wife. But I didn’t expect such an interesting story. They met when they were both 17. They dated briefly, then lost contact when he went to war and her family moved. But he said he thought about her the entire war. After his return, he decided to look for her. He searched for her for 10 years and never dated anyone. People told him he was crazy, to which he replied “I am. Crazy in love”. On a trip to California, he went to a barber shop. He told the barber how he had been searching for a girl for ten years. The barber went to his phone and called his daughter in. It was her! She had also been searching for him and never dated either.
He proposed immediately and they were married for 55 years before her death 5 years ago. He still celebrates her birthday and their anniversary. He takes her picture with him everywhere and kisses her goodnight.
Some inspiring things he said;
"I was a very rich man. Not with money, but with love"
"I never had a single argument with my wife, but we had lots of debates"
"People are like candles. At any moment a breeze can blow it out, so enjoy the light while you have it."
"Tell your wife that you love her everyday. And be sure to ask her, have I told you that I love you lately?"
Be sure to talk to the elderly. Especially strangers. You may think that you will brighten their day, but you may be surprised that they can actually brighten yours.”
This is beautiful.